Saturday, June 7, 2014

I Killed Her - a short story by Rizy Ritzhaupt

   I Killed Her                                                                

      by Ritzy Ritzhaupt  2014 ©


“I know I’m guilty. Yes, I killed her­­­­”, she confessed to the officer with big hand gestures.
“I wanted her out of my life. She was a problem, a huge pain in my ass! She caused me tons of extra work”, she slurred as though in a fog­. Like a spinning top when it ends, she toppled into the nearest chair, finally sitting but far from calm as she continued to fidget in her chair.
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“Mmmmm,” the detective said as he watched her for a moment, before he went into the other room for coffee. “Would you like a cup of coffee, ah…?”  he directed to the woman that had just confessed, as she stared blankly at the detective.

“Coffee?” she asked as though on another planet, appearing muddled, trying to hide her emotions. “Coffee, not too hot with two sugars,” she requested. “Linda,” she told him her name. He motioned for another officer to get the coffee.

“Okay Linda, go over what happened and don’t leave anything out.” He instructed, giving her the fresh cup of coffee as he sat down across from her. 

“She was there, in front of the full length mirror, when I entered my bedroom.”

“Who was there, in front of the mirror?” he cocked his head to listen closer to her response.

“Maryanne, she was wearing my new evening gown!” she leaned forward to express her shock at the woman entering her home uninvited, as she continued. “I had just bought it to wear to my college reunion. My new dress!” she yelled, all her words ran together with hardly a breath between, as she reared up on the edge of her chair!

“Who is Maryanne? And then what happened?” he nudged her memory.

“She turned to face me”, Linda paused, sucking air into her deprived lungs, as her eyes were wide and dazed, as though in disbelief. She felt she was at the scene of the crime as it played out in her mind’s eye. “She laughed at me… she, she stood there and laughed at me as she made the dress twirl around. She laughed.” Linda mumbled as she sobbed, rising, she fell toward him. He grabbed her, before she crumpled to the floor and gently placed her back in her chair.

“Okay. Than what happened Linda?” he encouraged in a softer voice, encouraging her to tell more.

“Maryanne didn’t stop.” She focused her eyes just above his head, as she slowly formed each word, as though she was once again in the same room with Maryanne.

“Oh”, he empathized as he moved closer, watching her facial expressions.

 “It’s my dream! My dress! My life! I had to make her stop! I had to!” Linda faintly screamed, tearing at her clothes as she lunged toward him, pounding her fist on his chest.as she wanted to push him away.

“Okay, okay,” the detective, said as he tried to get her to reveal more without hitting him.
“What did you do next?” he continued.

“I plunged the knife into her heart!” she sobbed, wringing her hands.

“The knife?” he asked, glancing at the other officer with a questioning look.

“Yes, the knife. I stabbed her with the damn knife! I stabbed her, again and again. Each time I shoved it deeper and deeper. I thought it would break off but it didn’t.” She stared, wide eyed with glee as the scene replayed out in her minds-eye. It was as though Maryanne seemed to fade into the distance. She’ll never bother me again. She mumbled, as she stared blankly at the detective, the bitch is gone. She expressed to him, in soft heated words.

“Where did you get the knife?”

“I don’t know… it was in my hand!” she yelled distracted.

“Mmmm,” escaped from his lips as he continued to listen.

“I… ah, I… ah, I don’t know,” she looked at him stunned by what she said as she tried to remember where she had gotten the knife. “I don’t know. I killed her, I killed her”, she sobbed in distress, looking at her hands as though they were the enemy.

“You killed her?” He stared at the other officer shrugging his shoulders. “And then what did you do? Did you leave? Did you try to clean up the mess?

“The mess, yes, the mess, it was everywhere. No, I left the mess.”

“What did you do with Maryanne’s body?” he calmly asked Linda.

“I… I… I don’t… remember, I don’t know.”

A uniformed police officer entered the room shaking his head as he handed the investigator a note with Linda’s address across the top.

The note read, “No body – No blood – Large butcher knife – One shredded party dress”. He handed the note back. All the officers took turns reading the message; some revealed a slight snicker, holding back any sound.

“Are you sure Maryanne was dead?” he asked frowning as he visualized the note.

“She’s dead… she’s dead… yes, she’s dead!” the words dripped from her lips as though drops of blood slipped between them, in total frustration she wrenched the words from her mouth.

“How many times did you stab her?” He shrugged to the other officers viewing the interrogation through the large mirror, as he spoke. They all had become transfixed by the woman’s confession.

“Six, ten times, lots, I don’t remember exactly,” she mumbled counting on her fingers, trying to keep track of her slashing stabs.

“ Hmmmm… Where was this blood?”  He hoped for some answers that made sense.

“I told you, it was everywhere.” Her sigh, could be heard around the room

“Everywhere?” the officer repeated with a raised eyebrow of doubt.

“Her blood was on the bed, the mirror, the floor, the dress, everything was covered”, she exclaimed as she smacked her hands on the table, confused by their continued questions. She wondered if they were blind and couldn’t see Maryanne’s blood, as they kept pushing her for more information.

“Did you wash your hands after you stabbed Maryanne?” His eyes crinkled in total disbelief. He glanced into the mirror acknowledging the other officers. He was sure they also sighed with disbelief at Linda’s story.

“Yes, I washed my hands. No, I don’t… remember. They, were clean, yes, I washed them. There was blood everywhere. I killed her. I killed Maryanne, she’s gone.” She clutched at her heart as she spoke, realizing the truth once again, she had killed Maryanne!

“Did you wash the blood off the knife?”

“I don’t remember what I did with the knife!” she whined, confused by the same questions.

“How big was the knife?”

“How big?” She acted exasperated, fidgeting, “I don’t know” she spit out, revealing her frustration.

“Did you put the knife by the dress?”

“I don’t remember. I stabbed her with a knife many times. I killed Maryanne and she’ll never come back. She is gone forever more. Gone, do you understand?” she yelled annoyed at his repeated stupid questions!


“If she’s dead, than where did her body go and all the blood?” the investigator asked as he leaned over her.

Linda lowered herself back into the chair and flopped forward. Resting her head on her arms, she sobbed. Heavy exhausted sobs making her back heave up and down. In a daze, she, herself become Maryanne and then herself and her weary and wondering brain. Exhaustion left her limp in her chair as she softly said, “I murdered her”.

The detective left the interrogation room as Linda continued to sob. He walked over to the over detectives that had also been watching the interview.  He sent a female detective to bring Linda some tissues and help calm her down. He wanted to know what other detectives viewing them thought had happened

           “What do you think happened? What did she do with the body? Who is Maryanne? Got to get a last name, I have no idea who Maryanne is or if she’s even real.” He questioned as he asked the other officers for their input.

           “I think we need the psychologist to check her out. No blood found, that is very unusual.”  The observant female detective words filled the room as she spoke.

“So, it had to be there in her room… did she kill her somewhere else?”  Pent up thoughts were spoken from others, that had also viewed the exchange.






Tuesday, February 25, 2014

RAIN

RAIN
by Ritzy Ritzhaupt
 
Smile, it's raining in Seattle.
Tiny little drops wash the makeup away.

Breath taking moisture caresses you with soft gentle drops, that should annoy, but their tender sweetness makes you feel alive.  It had been a lovely day to be outdoors.

In Seattle it's said, "If you don't like the weather, wait ten minutes and it will change".  Many times that's exactly what happens. Then, there are those days that melt your heart, certainly not from the heat, but from a glorious beauty. 

Mountain ranges and blue water touch your inner most thoughts.  It's in one of those moments, when a rhythm burst forth deep from within the raw you.

The excitement and beauty claim your soul; your entire being, holding you in a wondrous embrace that comforts the being, to the core of its existence.

Feeling as though, one being wrapped in swaddling clothes. The embrace captures the essence of whom and what you are.

Your embedded with bands of steel giving knowledge and caring love, to the flesh that is known to be the person I think is special, a true Washingtonian.

Copyright 2014 All rights reserved

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Spinach in Disguise Smoothie



Spinach in Disguise Smoothie

   by Ritzy Ritzhaupt © 2013

Place all ingredients into Blendtec
in order listed.
Blend using Smoothie setting
2 med Bananas
2 Bartlett Pears - small
½ C Plain Yogurt
¼ - ½ C Oatmeal flakes
Fresh Spinach Large Handful
2 tsp Peanut Butter (I spread on Spinach leaf)
1 Tiny Yellow Pepper
2 tsp Chocolate Powder
½ - ¾ C Coconut Water

Makes about 24 oz.

I realized I wasn’t having as many smoothies as I did during the summer.
I made this without ice and it still had good flavor and body. I needed to use up some items before their shelf life expired. That's how this yummy smoothie was created.

I know, I've been busy having fun so haven't produced as much as I should. Hopeful my new writing classes will get me to produce more pages for my book or short stories.
Enjoy!

Sunday, June 2, 2013

GREEN SMOOTHIE YOU'LL LOVE



Green Smoothie You’ll LOVE!
Recipe by Ritzy Ritzhaupt

This is so yummy it’s hard to believe
You are getting a great serving of Spinach!

1 Large Banana
1/2 C Pineapple
2 Handfuls Fresh Spinach
1/2 C Earth Wise Strawberry Kiwi juice 

Place items in Blendtec as listed.
Blend on Smoothie setting.
Lacking Smoothie setting,
Blend on high for 1 to 2 minutes.
Makes about 20 oz.

Don’t have the Strawberry Kiwi juice on hand?
Throw in a few frozen Strawberries. 


Copyright June 2013 All Rights Reserved   

Friday, April 12, 2013

MY GUY and Leaving Ritzy Things


My Guy and Leaving Ritzy Things
by Ritzy Ritzhaupt 

We only had a 30 day notice that the lease would not be renewed on my knit shop. It was not enough time to sell off the contents of the shop. New inventory arrived on a daily basis since it was too late to stop the orders. We were not only overwhelmed but broadside by this news. My husband and I diligently slaved for that last month trying to liquidate the inventory and move the complete contents of the shop. 

We had plans on how to sell off the remaining inventory once we moved out and caught our breath. We had enjoyed a wonderful group of customers. Many of our saddened customers came in to help us pack things up and load boxes onto the truck for the storage units. It was just too much to sell off that quickly. With heavy hearts we closed our doors never to open again. 

I never had that chance to catch my breath... Let me step back in time to the prior September 2002. I faintly started to hear a soft voice echoing in my head that continued for months. The voice repeated these words and only these words, over and over again, "It only takes an instant." Being a mother with adult children, my thoughts immediately turned to some tragedy that might involve them our grandchildren. At odd moments during the day I would hear this phrase repeated in my head. 

I than came to my senses, I realized I didn't have control over my children or grandchildren and their lives. I began to doubt that this was a warning that meant they were in danger. Still, I heard... "It only takes and instant". 

I stood in front of my shop, admiring the success I had created with the beginning funds of only $250.00 many years ago with the help from my darling husband. Oh, yes, it had taken time and lots of energy, but I had created what I desired. Wow! It was a powerful feeling. Joy, pride and the greatest fullness that comes with success, all washed over me. I stood in the parking lot, proudly gazing at the neon sign above my store, which I had seen, but not seen for years. I again heard the voice. "It only takes an instant." Of course, I did the only logical thing; I strongly ignored it! 

Then when the "voice" continued to ring in my head, I felt the warning must be meant for me. I started being more cautious in my regular activities and always saying what I meant... but that's a good thing over all. This seemed to send the voice a ways farther back into the distance. 

I was happy with my life, I'd achieved my goals, not perfectly but my dreams were fulfilled. I was on top of the world. I was madly in love with my guy and he was head over heels in love with me. He handled all the household stuff and I worked the knit shop. He treated me like his queen, as if I were a precious commodity, cherished and very loved. 

My guy was a romantic at heart. A sweet and tender soul, he loved nothing more than to make me happy. He did so many little things to light up my day or just because. He'd be the one to get lunch for us or get our morning latte. He'd come back with hugs and kisses as though he'd been gone for a week. In other words, we couldn't stand to be apart. We truly enjoyed each other’s company. He had traveled the world in a submarine but wanted nothing more than to be by my side. His years aboard a submarine had given him a talent for packing goods into small spaces. He always amazed me how he could make a huge quantity of stuff shrink into a tiny space. 

He was my forest of protection, always there offering his arms for safety. My strength, my very being had been securely entwined in him. We were two strong individuals but one whole. We were close as though we breathed for each other. He was my senior and that always gave me pause, yet, he didn't act that old. He acted and behaved much younger. He had learned to take time to smell the roses too. 

One early dawn he came back into the house and gently woke me. "Come quick, you have to see this." He wrapped my robe around me and threw my jacket on top of that. It was a cold November morning at daybreak. When we stepped off the porch and looked to the east over the top of the barn... we became bathed in the most glorious sunrise ever. We shared that moment as close as two beings can, as we shivered in the morning crispness watching the sky unfold its glorious show. He gave me one of his lushes big hugs and placed me back on the porch with kisses a bunch. "I love you sweetie," he said as he planted a parting kiss on my lips, as though he was going out to sea for months.  

Back to the July 17, 2003 ten days after closing. We were starting our new life without the shop and all our shop friends. We still hadn't tried to move any of the many stacks of boxes that cluttered the house. We did a little jig-jag to dance around them when going from room to room. We knew we had lots of time to figure them out. First we would eliminate the storage units and then un-clutter the house.  

A week and a half later we needed to buy groceries and decided a trip to the base would be something to cheer us up. He seemed tired but I thought he was still trying to catch up on rest from the move. I knew I still felt deflated. He had made a doctor’s appointment for the following Monday morning. He took more time and waited in the car while I did some of the shopping. When we got home, we both unloaded the groceries from the car. He took the frozen foods down to the basement freezer. 

We were both exhausted from our trip out and had a simple dinner. We popped in a movie since nothing else sparked our interest. I started to lie down on the couch and realized I just might fall asleep. I quickly sprang back up and looked him in the eye from across the room. 
"I love you babe," I said.  
"Ahhhh, you do?" He answered back with one of his big lopsided grins and a question in his voice.
"With all my heart," I reassured him.
"I love you to babe," he said as he continued to eat a bowl of fruit. 
 I laid back down with the knowledge that all was right in my world. 

Sad to say, it didn't last long. I soon realized I was at the threshold of change. The clock revealed 2 am. He wasn't in his recliner. I didn't know what, but something seemed very wrong. I was aware that I was not hearing the voice and the lack of it made the hair stand up on the back of my neck. Those events have been the hardest I have ever had to walk through. The realization that there was nothing I could do to change them, that hit me hard.

I now appreciated how the Hawaiian King, in the book Hawaii, had climbed to the top of the mountain and gouged out his eye at the loss of his beloved wife. If I could just find a high enough mountain or a sharp enough knife, I too could cut out my pain. It has been a long hard road.
Ed wanted our flag out front; after all, he retired after serving 20 years in the US Navy on submarines. He enjoyed helping me in the shop. He thrived when working behind the counter where his perfect scrip made each ticket readable by the accountant. He told many of his submarine stories to knitter’s spouses as their wives shopped for yarn and patterns. Young and old would sit around the large worktable learning to knit and purl as they pictured the waves crashing over his submarine as the boat road out a storm. Most of his stories were laughter filled and some were nail biters. 

When an out of sort’s toddler appeared, he would enchant them into a realm of construction as he showed them how to make a large swatch on the knitting machine or led them to the toy box and offered to read them a story. There were times; it was almost magical as he wooed them into quiet time while mom shopped. This was intriguing to watch since he stood six feet four inches tall and most toddlers came to his knee.

Ed New Year's
 
Our last trip together New Year’s 2002 to Vancouver BC. 

Ed photo

 






In fond memory of my beloved husband, Edward D. Ritzhaupt CPO USN Retired
07/12/1929 - 07/18/2003 



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